I'm not going out.

That's my Zaki earlier this year on the way home from Glastonbury, we stopped at a service station and they bumped into Dick from dick and dom....kids programme, Zaki was soooo pleased to have this pic taken.
Adam was cooler that's him below, he is only just 15 in the pic, goodness knows what he will be like at 18!

We were watching Eastenders tonight and Adam commented after Pat was told that her cancer wasn't cureable... well at least yours is........he had never asked directly and in an instant i couldn't lie so i said no it isn't. He didn't break down and weep or run out of the room, he was just a bit peeved that he had thought it ok. When Zaki came back onto the room he told him even though i tried to eye ball him not to and he responded with we can handle this you know....Zaki said oh that's sad.

Hmmm and humph ! not the reaction to expect but then i guess i play it all pretty low key and i don't look ill. Adam asked if the op i might have would cure it and i said no unlikely i guess he is getting his head around it.

I was meant to go out tonight with friends, i didn't go, not in the going out mood i prefered sitting at home with Zaki who would have been on his own anyway had i gone.

Just have to see how the boys go on, Joe the oldest has known the situation for a while, what can i say my own response to my mum's news and dad's was mucht he same as theirs, stoic and not too emotional those family traits are inbred and difficult to throw off , but they also stand us in good stead.